A Letter to You Before Your ‘Birth’ Day Buba {Flashback}

My dear little boy, or that’s what they have told me you are, I am ever so full of emotions as I prepare for your “birth” day. Your due date is looming soon, although I don’t think you will be coming anywhere near it. Right, from the start I have had this feeling you will choose your own date to arrive not a date that the dial tells you to come.

You have already been so good to me throughout my pregnancy. No sickness, no uncomfortableness, or tiredness. You have played during the day, kicking and poking around but come nighttime you are calm and sound, giving Mommy that much needed sleep. It’s weird to say Mommy, as I am yet to be one. You are my first born, you will teach me as much as I will teach you, right from the start.

I will admit, I am nervous and scared. Not for the birth, as most expected first parents-to-be are, but I am nervous and scared for what lies far ahead of that. This world is cruel and mean, and I already have so much love and protective feelings towards you, how will I keep it all at bay. How will I raise you to be this great asset to the world and shelter you from the horrors of it at the same time? How will I teach you wrong from right and make sure you choose right? Scary thought is I know I can only do my best and that might not be enough!

I often lay here at night thinking what kind of mother I will be. I have a notion what I want to be, but I know as soon as you are placed in my arms, everything will change. I will change. I have watched numerous siblings give birth and have seen this change along with my friends all becoming parents. I am ready for it, I know it will come, I just wonder what it will change in me?

For some reason, I am calm about giving birth. I think knowing Grandma had Uncle R and Mommy so fast it gives me hope that it will be the same for me. At the end of the day, I keep telling myself, it doesn’t matter, whatever it takes to get you in my arms.

I have your room ready for you, even though I know it will be a while before you are in it. ย I have decorated it with Sailboats. I hope you like them. Mommy is a little obsessed with navy and white stripes. I blame the Yankees. (baseball not Americans).

My bags are packed for the hospital, your car seat is in the car and ready. The house we just moved into a few weeks ago is as good as it’s going to get, ready to bring you home to. I am so excited, in the end, that we moved. This is our home now, the home me and your Daddy got together. ย Bring you home to it will make it a perfect home. A home where we all can make first memories together as a family. No one else has lived here, just us. We will be the first to fill it with laughter, and the first to fill it with tears. I cannot wait to fill these blank walls with pictures of your smile.

We had a 3D scan quite early as Mommy was eager to get to know if you were a boy or a girl. But even now, I have this vision of what you will look like. There is still a wonder will you get Daddy’s dark hair and Mommy’s great blue eyes but either way you will look like you. This, I am most excited to see, so very soon.

Not knowing what lies ahead, I am ever so eager for you to get here. But take your time little buddy, as long as you need, I know in my heart there are many great things to come for us as a family. Thank you for taking care of Mommy while she in turn takes care of you. I have enjoyed carrying you around for the past nine months and at each moment getting closer to meeting you. I hope that I will be a great Mommy for you, and give you what you need in life. I know I will love you more than I do right now, if that is even possible. I sit here, staring down at my belly, staring down at you, and I know you already know all this.

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I wrote this a week before my due date with Buba, not knowing what was to come, and what kind of parent I would be. It has been an amazing journey, one I don’t want to ever forget so I flashback today, and share it all with you. ย 

74 thoughts on “A Letter to You Before Your ‘Birth’ Day Buba {Flashback}”

    • Ahh thanks Emma. I know that I wasn’t blogging when Buba was born or for the past two years of his life but I kept detailed diaries so hoping that I can every once in a while share them here in flashbacks so he will have them as much as Missy Moo does. I always cried rereading it. haha I am such a softy.

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  1. Stunning Jenny, really beautiful. I sometimes wish I had written more when my children were young. Such precious memories x

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  2. What a beautiful post. And a gorgeous bump too!! I wish I’d written a letter like this before I became a mother. My eldest is 9 now and I still remember so clearly how I felt the day before I went in to be induced. This is such a lovely memory
    x x

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    • Never too late to write it my lovely. Reflecting back is always just as good so you have it documented forever. Thank you it was fun to go back and read through my pregnancy diary.

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    • Ahh Thanks Debs you are so sweet. I was huge with Buba this bump was twice the size in real life. lol I am going back through all my pregnancy diaries for flashback moments. Stay tuned!

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    • Every moment is important. Why uncomfortable? Nosy me. I am so glad I documented so much in diaries my whole life. I have lots of flashbacks to share. I guess writing my journal was my way of writing a blog before I got the guts to actually do it. lol

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    • Yes I am a forgetful person anyways so I always wrote everything down in journals and documented everything will photo albums and digital scrapbooks etc. I am so glad I did. Now I can share them all with all of you slowly one by one. My baby brain wouldn’t have remembered all this either. lol

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    • Thank you Jocelyn. I hope he likes it. As a boy though he might just think it’s stupid. One day maybe. I have one for Missy Moo too that I did that I will be sharing soon.

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    • Thank you so much. I wasn’t sure to share it but then I really want this blog to be a document of everything for BOTH of my kids so the flashbacks will continue. I have regrets of not blogging when i had buba. Now I am trying to catch up before I forget things or lose things. lol

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  3. Such a beautiful letter and how lovely to share it. I hope everything turned out just as you wanted it to – and more besides! I kept a diary for my third pregnancy, but have never looked back on it – I fear it would make me cringe. Maybe I will take a look…

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    • LOOK!!! It will bring back great memories and a few laughs. It’s great to look back. I love a good flashback. I have tons of journals recording everything so will be sharing more in the weeks ahead.

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  4. This is such a beautiful letter. I wrote a journal when I was pregnant with my twin daughters and I re-read it a couple of years ago. I was in fits of hysteria when I went over my birth plan as nothing had happened the way I wanted it to. But there were 2 perfect babies at the end of it – so it didn’t matter in the slightest.

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    • So true. Isn’t it great to have those journals and look back on. I love it. It’s great memories and I laugh at some of the things I wrote about back then too. Especially my plans on birth and being a parent. None of it happened the way I wanted or thought but like you two beautiful babies out of it and we are doing alright lol hahaha Thanks for stopping by and commenting.

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    • Ahhh glad you liked it Jess. I am so glad I kept journals of both my pregnancies. I only wish I had been blogging throughout both of them. So much I want to share and document.

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    • Thank you Merlinda. Yes I can’t wait until he is older and mIssy Moo too and look back on this blog and read all these. I wrote one the same for MM before I had her which I will be sharing in a few weeks. I love a good flashback.

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  5. n’awww this is so sweet. I’m tempted to do one myself, being due in 2.5wks but, I cannot get such touching things in writing! I tend to stick with a goofball style of writing. gutted!

    #sharewithme would love if you came and said Hi! x carsonsmummy.blogspot.co.uk xx

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    • Do you will love it more in months or years to come! This is 2 1/2 years ago and I bet if I read it right after I wrote it I would have thought the same thing. And if you like the goofball style that can be really awesome for your little one to read back in years to come too. I also write each one of mine a letter on their birthdays which I will be sharing. It’s a great way to talk to them from the past. Write it lock it away and open it in five years. You will love that you did it. Promise. At least you will give a few laughs at it.

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    • Thank you so much Tarana. Glad you liked it. It was great rereading it out of my pregnancy journals. I have so many good ones I want to share on here. In time. lol

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    • Thank you so much so sweet of you. I have one for Missy Moo too. I love a good flashback so much that I wrote in my journals that I want to share. I wish I had been blogging back then too.

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  6. ahhh what a sweet letter and photo of you and baby ‘bump’ . I loved having the3d scans and always wondering what they will look like. I thought my girls would have red hair like me shocked when they were both born with black hair and now blonde x

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    • Same here, both of my kids were born with black hair and it turned blonde as can be now too. Isn’t that weird. I was curious because Mr P has black hair so I thought I would be out numbered but he is now in fact outnumbered with the three blondies. Thanks hunny you are so sweet.

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    • Thank you Honey! I love looking back at things I wrote to my kids in my pregnancy. I will be sharing more flashbacks soon. Glad you liked it. Thanks for stopping by and commenting.

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  7. Lucas says – Ha Ha Ha – I was EVIL to the Mother when I was in her tummy. I made her sick every day and gave her REALLY bad heartburn, especially when she wanted to sleep!!!! I made it up to her though as for my first six months I was a REALLY good baby, then the inner Haribo awakened inside of me *cue evil laugh* #sharewithme

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    • Hahaha That’s ok you are nice and loving to her now right? *I hope. lol MM wasn’t very nice to be at first. Her letter to come soon. Her brother was alot nicer and made mommy want another if it was the other way around maybe not. lol jokes.

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  8. What a lovely letter to your little boy, I remember writing a short note to O the night we found I was expecting but have no idea where I’ve put it. I may have to dig it out.
    I’m sure Buba will love reading this when he’s older xx

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    • I hope so. I have always been a great one for journals and documenting everything on paper and in books now I just need to get it all documented here in one place. Yes do dig it out. You will love reading it now.

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    • I was so glad I kept a pregnancy journal with both of my kids. I was looking back and reading some of it and its so special. I can’t wait to share more here in the next few weeks. Stay Tuned.

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    • Thanks Emily. Glad you enjoyed it. I love rereading both my kids pregnancy journals I did. Brings so much emotion and great feelings of unknown back.

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    • Ya I really should get organized and have one keepsake box but I have things all over the place lol Thanks glad you like it. I wrote one to MM too.

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    • hahah I know what you mean. I wrote alot more in Buba’s pregnancy journal than I did in Missy Moo’s only because I was trying to keep up with two. Thanks glad you liked it.

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    • Thank you so much. I love writing letters to them before they were born and on their birth days. I have one for Missy Moo I will be sharing soon. Thanks for stopping by and commenting.

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