Poem 52: This Feeling

Last updated on March 4th, 2024 at 08:17 pm

I can’t shake this feeling,

It’s all piling up too high,

The end I’m not seeing,

My to do list, up to the sky,

With testy toddlers in tow,

Throwing tantrums left & right,

A crawling baby with a bow,

Pulling out everything in sight,

Laundry, cooking, cleaning,

Doing my daily chores,

Exhausted and leaning,

Need some fresh air outdoors,

Challenges I have set,

Is of my own doing,

Trying to get my goals met,

With little time, anxiety is brewing,

Trying to find balance in life,

Achieving all I want to,

As a mother & as a wife,

But as an individual too,

I can’t shake this feeling,

My head is spinning too fast,

At first it all looked appealing,

I long for the calm of the past. 

 

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24 thoughts on “Poem 52: This Feeling”

  1. I love that you brought in the longing to be an individual again – it seems to be a guilty sentiment for a lot of mothers, but a shared one.

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    • Glad I am not alone then. lol hahaha yes we all give ourselves far too much pressures and to dos and not even me times but that’s just life. It’s nice to be able to write about it and get over and on with it. Thanks for stopping by and commenting. Hope to see you again soon.

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    • Thank you so much for the comment. Glad I am not the only one. I always say sink or swim and usually paddle nicely but lately feels more like drowning.

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  2. You have put those feelings so well.
    It’s a natural cost of being a mum / carer who really cares, and has high standards too.
    But don’t forget to add to the list giving yourself an honest pat on the back… and I believe that our children learn how to ‘juggle’ from watching us doing to!
    Best wishes,
    Emma. x.

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    • Thanks Emma. It’s been a bit too much at the moment. I need to learn to say no and learn to relax but there is no rest for the wicked. Its my own doing as I don’t want to miss a trick and want to be involved in so many things at once. Not sure if that’s a good or bad trait to have. So tired lately.

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  3. I always try to think ‘tomorrow is a new day’ but I am so with you in feeling like this occasionally! Hope you get some down time this weekend and that next week is a bit easier for you xx

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    • Thanks Alice, no rest for the wicked here, trying to finish my backyard by Wednesday and then get back to making Missy Moo’s birthday decorations and double checking everything is ordering and a go for her 1st birthday slash Christening party. So much to do still for it. On top of crazy me starting night school again so just adds to the pile with homework lol That’s life usually I love the busy busy of it all but lately I am very tired. Maybe it’s because I just turned 30 and this lady just ain’t what she used to be. Can’t keep up. LMAO #oldmaid

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    • Thanks hunny. I wish I knew how to do that but its just not in my stubborn natural. Garden is always finished and the part decorations will be done the week after so there is light at the end of my mad tunnel. Its just overwhelming because I am leaving for two months so everything has a time limit on it.

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    • Ahh bless that’s ok I felt that too when I had one. I think it’s more of things we try to get involved with. EVERYTHING and be that super hero mother at the same time. Very natural. I am going away for two months in June so I feel rushed to finish all my little projects around the house. lol

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  4. I can relate to this so much, I have so much to do And so little time! I find making a list helps but only a little one and not focusing too far ahead right now! X

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    • Ya my list have gotten so long I had to make sub-lists. I know I have a problem when I need sub-list for the master lists. lol Glad I am not the only one.

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  5. Oh Jenny, I want to give you a hug! You’ve summed up exactly how I’ve been feeling recently too! It’s soo hard to juggle everything isn’t it? And I don’t know about you but I’m feeling the pressure to do my best on the blog since the BiBshortlist. But it’s so hard to keep up, especially with kids to love and take care of too. Time is so thinly spread – hope you get some time out to chill soon. #prose4T

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    • Thanks Jude. Yes I know that feeling of so much pressure. I feel like my blog is 5 years behind everyone else and I have way too much to learn to keep up with it all and family, house, husband, me life sleep etc. I got way too many eggs in different baskets lately. Big hugs back to you hun.

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  6. Every mother of toddlers has felt this panic and fear at some time or other. Very expressive poem. I know exactly where you’re coming from! I found the best thing to do was remind myself that a) I’m only human b) this IS only a phase and it too shall pass (probably faster than we’d all like when all is said and done) and c) tomorrow is another day. Helped me calm the panic inside that I was losing myself for sure. #Prose4T

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    • Thanks Emily for the advice you are so right. We probably all are a bit harder on ourselves than we like to admit. Don’t always feel like this just on that particular day. hahaha

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