Last updated on May 6th, 2024 at 10:26 am
Oh what a week, can I erase it from my memory? Can I catch up all that sleep I lost? Or take away all the tears I have cried from worry? It’s been one of the hardest weekest ever parenting this week along with everything else that has been going on, I feel drained. I feel broken and depleated.
The short version of it, my littlest woke up last Friday with bumps covering her entire body. Slowly over the following six days she was consumed with it. No one could tell us what was happening and numerous doctors appointments along with numerous guesses had me in tears. It’s so hard as parents you feel everything they feel but you also have the added worry. My stomach is still in knots with the constant trying to determine what it could be. We saw a specialist yesterday that gave us a path to move forward with and try but no definite answers. It’s a mystery. I have lost so much sleep over it this week, I feel like my head is too heavy to stand up with. I felt totally helpless too. It’s a horrible combination.
We have also been waiting more answers on my Dad’s stomach cancer as he has undergone intense and aggressive chemo therapy. They are looking to remove his entire stomach within the next two weeks and that’s so unnerving too. I hate the waiting. I hate not being there for my mother to help, to guide, to hug, to support from a far is heart wrenching. I do the best from here but it’s not the same. I pray and hope for a positive outcome with every part of my being.
Ok, enough doom and gloom here on LTM, I know this is supposed to be little “loves” not little “heartaches”. Despite all that’s going on we have had a few moments to skip over to the park and get some much needed fresh air. That’s a highlight of the week for sure. We all desperately needed out of the house.
THIS WEEK I AM LOVING…
I started the Grisha Trilogy. It’s a page turner right from the start. I do love a little sci-fantasy if I do say so myself. It’s like Divergent meets Lords of the Rings or somewhere in the middle. I am finishing up Try Not to Breathe as well. I normally don’t start two books at once but I haven’t read much in January as I normally do. I am also desperately trying to catch up on all my favorite blog posts to comment on too. If you think I have been ignoring your blog lately give me a shout out on twitter with a link to your blog post and I will read and comment on it. I owe you all so many! Please forgive me!
I have been listening to a lot of country music while cleaning out the house. It’s been like spring cleaning overhaul and it’s not even spring yet. I also have been listening to my son sing at the top of his lungs 24/7 who thinks he sings amazingly all the sudden. On top of doctor after doctor telling me they have no clue what’s wrong with my daughter. All things that are making my head spin… need I say more here.
This is a bit of a double feature on #littleloves this week, sorry. I am continuing on from last year with my monthly Little Loves Vlogs. Where I sum up my month for my YouTube followers. I noticed a lot of my vlog followers don’t actually read my blog at all and they loved my round ups last year. I won’t do them every week because I love writing them out for you all here too. I will make sure they contain different content as well so it’s not constantly just repeating myself in both places. But the last week of each month I am going to try and sum up the month for my Little Loves. Here is my first of 2017 to sum up January… if you want to take a peak (please).
I know you might have caught glimpse that I had teamed up with Boots Natural Collection and this ISN’T apart of that campaign, I do honestly love it. I haven’t been able to wear lipstick or lipgloss that doesnt’ make my lips break out and so far I can with this range so I am sticking to it. I have been wearing this pink lip gloss all week. No problems. That’s a first in years for me so I had to shout out. You can read (for a cheap plug in) read my five favorites from the range and how to makeover your makeup bag for just £10 here. Needless to say I love my new makebag too. Anything with yellow on it is a must!
Ok so I made some amazing Valentine’s Day recipes that I mentioned last week. My Easy Chocolate Bark is now available and my Marshmallow Pops will be ready next week. However, let’s just focus on the complete and utter PINTEREST FAIL I had this week with another Valentine’s Day recipe. My first attempt at a layered cake with ganache drizzling down the sides. It looks like something from Vampire Diaries that is supposed to frighten you. The layers were uneven and lopsided. I had two layers of vanilla cake and two layers of red velvet. I thought it would be nice for a Valentine’s Day celebration cake. FAIL! The ganache never harden like it was supposed to and continued to run and be googy indefinitely. On the plus side, it tastes amazing.
It’s been lovely with warm lights, beautiful interiors and food as much as the regular gorgoeus kiddos on #LIFECLOSEUP community on instagram this week. Here are a few favorites…. You don’t just have to join in with snaps of your family, don’t forget to include snaps of your favorite corner of your home or a self perhaps, maybe zoom in on your desk. Why not what you are baking and cooking in the kitchen too? It’s all welcome this community is growing rapidly and so much fun, please come join us!
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Oh Jenny what a week and what a worry?! How is LL now?! Really not nice! So so sorry to hear about your dad, I knew you were having a few personal things going on but didn’t ever think it was this.. sending you lots of hugs! Fingers crossed tithe surgery goes well and the chemotherapy helps..
That cake looks amazing! Definitely not a fail! I could do with a slab of that! Looks delicious! Hope you have a stress free weekend lovely xxx
She is happy and fine in herself thankfully. It’s awful not knowing though I hate waiting for answers. Thanks hunny. It’s been a tough Christmas and new year for sure. I am trying to stay happy and positive but seems it’s one thing after another. The fail was the ganache sauce its supposed to be thick not see through and stop drizzling half way down the sides. OOps another attempt soon.
I can’t believe you call that cake a fail. I’d be more than happy with it. I really hope your gut is wrong about your daughter and you get some answers soon. I’m sorry your dad is so ill and so far away too. I hope his treatment goes well.
It was the ganache on top that fail to be thick and stop drizzling half way down the sides. But thank you lovely. That’s very kind. It tasted great. We find out more at the next paediatricians appt. Fingers crossed it’s one of those things that never returns and just goes.
How on earth is that cake a fail you crazy woman, it looks amazing! Bet it tastes great too. So sorry poor little MM has been so ill and you’ve been worried sick, fingers crossed you find out what on earth it is soon. And of course keeping everything crossed your dad’s op goes well. It’s awful being so far away and not being able to just give them a hug or hold their hand when you want to x
The cake turned out amazing… it was the ganache frosting that was supposed to be thick and stop half way drizzling down the sides that was the utter fail! hahah I am testing it out again soon. I hope we have some more answers from the paediatrician soon. I hate being away when he is so ill. It’s breaking my heart for sure.
I’m so sorry to hear your worrying news, it really puts pressure on doesn’t it. Fingers crossed you get an outcome for your little one soon, and wishing your dad a successful op. I think your cake looks great! xx
Thanks for your kind words and encouragement. Fingers crossed here. Cake was fab the ganache on top was the fail. hahahah
What a week, Jenny! Fingers crossed there’s answers for missy moo and that your dad has a successful op. Thinking of you, you’re having a seriously rough time of it. Big hugs to you xxxxxxxxxx
Thanks Megan, I am trying to look at some kind of silver outlining from it all. I am holding out that February will be an amazing month. Fingers crossed. Thanks for your kind words.
Oh, so sorry to hear about the week that has been… Thinking of you at these worrying times, and I hope this week proves to be a bit better.
The cake is a fail?! Really?! I think it looks great!
Me too, it’s getting better at the start still no answers on rare rash and no getting better on my swollen eye shut. But I am feeling a good change shift and I think February is going to be a great month for us. The ganache is supposed to be thick and stop half way trickling down it’s like googy blood here. hahah Total fail.
Big hugs, Jenny. I hope you get some answers soon. It must be terrible to not know what’s going on and what the next steps are. On a brighter note, though, I wished my Pinterest Fails looked like that. Apart from the ganache, it’s pretty amazing #littleloves x
The ganache looks like vampire blood hahaha but I had fun making the rest of it I supposed. It was a good taste to it. Just need to perfect that ganache again and attempt one last time. Thanks hun no answers yet but fingers crossed it’s slowing down.
The cake still looks pretty fantastic to me! And if it tasted good then I’d call that a win 😉 xx
I’m sorry to hear you have had such a worrying week, it must be awful being so far away from your mum & dad at times like this. I hope the doctors get to the bottom of your little girls bumps soon. It’s lovely that you are still able to find some little loves from a stressful week it sometimes helps to focus on the positives doesn’t it. That cake looks amazing certainly not a fail in my book. Hope you have had a good weekend x #LittleLoves
What a week you had, hopefully you get some answers soon. I totally loose track when i try reading two books at once. that cake looks amazing. I hope your having a better week.
There is no way that cake is a fail it looks amazing! I hope you’re bringing a slice on Saturday :). I do hope you and little miss feel better soon, its so worrying when you don’t know quite what is wrong. x x