How did we get to the end of January 2016 already? I am not going to lie to you, January has not been kind to us in more ways than one. It’s been one of the hardest months as a parent, as a blogger, and as a wife just keeping up with life and everything it demands of me.
The first week saw us trying to get back into a routine of school/nursery/work which felt tiring and busy more than normal. The second week found the kids being very emotional, cranky, and the weather turning for the worse. The third week saw the kids both with puke buckets for days follow by Mr P and I not well either. It was like the plague hit us all at once. This past week has been the toughest of all. I know I shouldn’t admit that my website has been hacked. You are supposed to say, “it in maintenance”. But no I need to say it has ruined me for days trying to fix and sort out. When you eat, sleep and breathe your blog and work hard to make it the very best, it’s not easy to handle. I had a big breakdown and even at 32, I just wanted my mommy. I called and begged her to come visit me. It’s time like this I get so homesick that I can’t just go have a coffee and get a hug from my mother.
While this is one of my favorite projects that I started over two years ago I am admitting I feel like I failed this month. I had all these plans for 2016 family captures to be fun, creative and unique. Instead… it was the first time we have attempted taking our family capture more than once and actually this month it was the third attempt and I had to just say, you know what life isn’t perfect, life throws you curve balls and well this is our grainy, blurred, tired eyes, mix matched clothes, cheesy grins of life below. In all it’s imperfections. I look at these and I can see the tough month we have had but I also can see that after it all we are still a team, a family unit. That’s what its all about.
Together we are loving…
Staying in our pjs a little longer on the weekends than normal.
Duvet days and movies together.
Not planning anything for the weekends and being home together.
Trying to live a slower paced life.
Clearing out the house of all it’s unwanted, unneeded items. (maybe just mommy)
Sometimes as bloggers I think we may get wrapped up into the perfect picture, the perfect setting and capturing moments that are real but lovely. I will fully admit this and I feel pressure when I see that our family captures one month may have come out unfocused or bad. But as a supportive friend said to me this week, that’s not what its about. I really have to step back and stop putting extra added pressure on myself. So what if these are not in the best location, the lighting is crap and they are grainy which is what I first thought of when I downloaded them. But looking at them closer I see passed all that. I see MM enjoying an inside joke with her Daddy and see how much B has really grown up and changed since the last time we sat here and took a photo together. I see that we can have a laugh together despite the crappy month we have had. I am trying to focus on the positives as we look forward to February starting and a chance to try it all over again.
Do you ever feel overwhelmed when things go bad? Does it ever feel like it’s snowballing together? How do you get back on course? I know, it’s always better to share clear, lovely photos on my blog which each month I try desperately but sometimes I have to say life just doesn’t play ball like you want it to and you got to roll with it. These will still be memories of our life together.
Why not check out the Me & Mine host and team and see what their lovely families have been up to this month. Lucy at Dear Beautiful, Katie at Mummy Daddy Me, Fritha at Tigerlilly Quinn, Lucy at Capture By Lucy, and Alex at Bump-to-Baby.